Saturday, June 13, 2009

Regaining ground

When you have been off your feet for awhile, it is hard to get back up and move on. I am watching my hubby take those very small steps that will get him back. A move today from one room and floor to another will be a setback. surroundings are hugely important in feeling like you are making progress. When you are moved from a nice room with good care to one less well cared for and staff who don't approach their job with a feeling of self worth then it impacts the sense of well being for their patients.
My goal will be to get him out of there as quickly as possible. Depression is a big part of delaying the healing process. Since he suffers from these overwhelming bouts of sadness from time to time, I will have to watch him carefully.
Thankful for the writing which continues to help me to cope.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Coping with a major change in circumstance.

Tired, tired, tired.
Is there any hope for pain relief in the shoulder?
Well lots of folks have called offering to help. I am accepting all resources. Sleep is a good thing. I can't believe I am even too tired to write....but I am. Hubby is better but still in a lot of pain.
Hmmm....a new element on the periodic table. How about that. Watch Rachel Maddow...she is brilliant.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

A Long Day!

It has been a long day. Funny how you miss someone most when you start to do the little things. All the chores that my hubby would be doing are now done by me. the beautiful orchids finally blooming in the living room and lovely because he takes care of them. the cat pan needs attention. It's sunday! The house needs to be cleaned. Who will cook dinner for me? that would be the least of my worries for the day. I can get Mr. Chow, Col Saunders, Mario, Crabby Joe to provide the meal but I will miss the uniquely Jamaican flavour.
Hard to write, to focus to do anything. Just step by step.....He's doing better. He was up today, walking a little. Well, he is disciplined and motivated. I hope he will be able to cope and get over the shock. That will be the hard part.
Got to get back to my writing.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Ok...what a week! My shoulder feels like something constantly in a wringer. It hurts in a very strange way. The pain of May, which was acute and biting, has been replaced by a nerve pain, twisting turning and pulling inside my shoulder. Obviously a nerve ending having a good time in there.
It is similar to what I had when cancer surgery held me years ago. Why am I reliving this now? What is the lesson needed. Maybe none, but truth is that I simply need to rest more.
I am writing here too about my husband who was injured in a car crash this past week. My shoulder pain is nothing compared to the acute agony which he is suffering but still I must bear mine just as he must bear and overcome his own. Rehab sits on his horizon and it may be long and trying but he is a determined man.
I added a new chapter to my story. In response from my readers, they like the character who is a wonderful delightful catalyst to move the story forward. So between the writing and visiting my time will be full...what to give up? Dunno...