Found at last!

One of the most important things for me is to have a visualization of my characters when I am writing. I mean, they are in my head but being able to put a face up on screen is almost impossible. Nothing ever matches one's personal internal view. For years, I have looked at photos of red headed women, trying to find my ideal Stephanie and my ideal Georgette. The men were pretty easy to organize.
In this past week I have found both women. Shocking when I realize that I probably looked at three thousand photos or more. I can now scan a page of 75 in seconds. Kristin Kreuk is the Georgette of my fantasies. She just seemed to fit the part. I saw a photo, one in which her Chinese heritage isnt so obvious. Didn't know who she was. I only watch news and cable TV. Well I saw her face and knew this was the ideal image. Unlike fotosearch which has thousands of nameless photos, there was a name attached to this one which I found on a hair blog. When I googled her and looked at more pictures and read her biography, I was hooked. She is a little shorter than the woman in my story but that matters less and less.
I was so happy? Yes! because someday I hope to see this story of mine on screen, whether big or small and I am already looking for my cast. How's that for dreaming?
My delightful Vasily Stephanov continues to be the dream man of my Beauty and the Beast stories www.fanfiction.net . What a perfect match he was! Now I just need to find and/or identify my heroine Stephanie. If you know any tall exciting titian redheads, send a photo. BTW I have already been to the redhead goddess forum.
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Wedding Season

It is getting closer to the wedding season.  I have already done two this year so far but the sad thing is that there is only one more booked.  I love doing weddings.  It is a fun occasion and although I don't get to stay and party with the couple, just the set up, the ceremony of it, the fun for everyone and the moment when the bride shines coming down the aisle are really worth it.  Funny but when I got married it wasn't as important to have all the trimmings.  We didn't have a house.  We didn't have lots of money but we did have love and a desire to make a life together and we did.  Working for those things as partners made life tough but overcoming the obstacles made us stronger.  As I see couples set out on their journey I wish them the same ups and downs but also the courage to make their partnership stronger every day.

technology

Today I am blogging from the real crossroads of technology. Kids do it all the time. What about the older generation? Well, I guess we'll see!

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Getting Published

Big deal...make sure that all the spelling is correct. You really need to get someone else to read it. I didn't realize how many times I can go over the same mistake because my eyes see one thing and my head sees another. Oh Well! A redo is in order. I can do it. Waaahhhhhhh!

Getting published

I am excited. It is fun to blog and to write and do lots of things but to see my story finally in print, with a cover that has my name on it is strangely exhilerating. Maybe a publisher wouldn't have wanted to take it on. Who knows. I guess we can't live in maybes forever. Time to step out of the maybe shadow and move into the light of cando. So taking matters into my own hands requires some courage. Why do I have a shortage of that. Married how many years? raised kids, held numerous jobs in so many places, always challenging myself to do better and know more and teach more?
Why the big deal? Well stories contain so much of myself. You have to be prepared to bare your soul both overtly and tacitly. Kind of scary because the feed back feels like a personal affront if it is negative and too good to be true if it is positive. This isn't the way to approach things in life. So yeah, the book is at the publishers and yes I will plug it and give it a space of its own on my web site and hope for sales and good comments but take the negatives as well and let the next story be better. I have found the courage to be where I want to be.

The Will to be True

All the stories I write are a compilation of the numerous events I have heard in a lifetime of interaction with people from all over the world. I thank them for sharing their stories with me. I am deeply grateful to them for trusting me with their confidences and I hope their struggle is heard in the words. I thank my eternal muse for giving me the steadfastness to complete what I start, something I have not done consistently. I am moved to write from the heart by the music I listen to every day. This story, particularly part two, was inspired by two songs written by Jane Sibbery and ably performed by k.d. lang. 'The Valley' and 'Love is Everything' and of course the main title was motivated by a Hank Loughlin favourite from years ago- Please Help Me I'm Falling. I always wanted to write a story that would explain how we would find ourselves pleading for the will to be true.